Friday, December 12, 2008

Seeing People



What does seeing someone really mean? If we think about it you can see many people but can you really see who they are and what they feel? You don't have to be psychic to be able to know people, is it a gift? No, its only being able to empathize with someone, you don't necessarily have to know everything that person has been through. I can say that if seeing people is a gift I am a glad possessor of this gift.
It’s amazing how sometimes just by looking at someone you can totally connect to their ideas and thoughts... its pretty crazy but when it does happen you know that there is someone who sees you too. But once again, how many people get to see you as you are, to the point where you may feel like you are a naked soul, and that is perfect when the sentiment is mutual; and even if its not knowing that you can see things that no one else can pick up on is extraordinary (well I guess it also depends on who you are trying to see) lol careful there....
In my case there are only very few people who see me, and people who don't often get surprised when I have a bad idea in my head and I actually say it aloud all I say is, " You just don't really know me"
I can't say I always feel happy for the people who listen to my nonsense because sometimes it’s pretty crazy and just like WOW!! But at the same time I can't complain because they are the people who really care. Those who just by a look in the eyes can get a hint of whatever thought is going on in this crazy little head of mine.

People see me, some others don't and I'm glad for that sometimes I mean I don't want to like traumatize them for ever. But if someone actually took the time to get deep into my mind wow the wonderful (and not so wonderful) things they would find.

Now that is something i can't deny I'm a pretty random eccentric chick, but if the bottom, and not so bottom, lol I am an extremely sentimental, romantic, dedicated and committed girl. It sounds weird that I say this about myself but I guess that’s the first step in Seeing people; being able to see yourself and accept yourself as you are; a wonderful part of this world, very unique, extraordinary. It all begins in YOU!!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Possumatic

Just hangin', ya know?? lol


Possum?? Na, its just awesome... look at that huge smile!! aaahhh lol

Cookies?? lol

WOW!!! the big bad wolf lol just kidding haha well i like violent romance lol (inside joke) lol if its bloody its better haha eeewww lol mwahaha.

I have string and I am not afraid to use it!! wow... lol haha wow mental images....
well my day was better today, a lot of ideas developed today and some are still in the making. The test tomorrow should be fairly easy... I hope.

" I don't think words sufice, therefore, actions do" lol
aaaahhhhh... hehe lol
I feel like singing chirstmas songs or that one song "Addicted" lol hmmmm....
So my computer was being stupid and deleted all my cookies ahhh cookies... does that sound Kinky?? lol
So i heard bloggers are sexy lol

lalalala....

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Green Why? Why not? lol



Hmmm... where should I start?? Well in the past week or so my life has been pretty crazy, like its not crazy enough as it is. But hey I'm not complaining I love life even in the roughest moments. I'm trying to get everything together for the movie screening and aahh its harder than i thought it would be. Thanks to all the Amnesty members its a little less stressful than it would be if I was doing it on my own. I don't even wanna get into like my "real" life because that is purely chaotic, things haven't been turning out the way I want them too and that's majorly grrrr!!! Aaaaaaahhh!!!! I actually wanted things to go wrong and when they finally do, they get better. Thats terrible for me... Its like destiny is pushing me one way but my heart is pushing me another way and it sucks. horrible for now I am letting things cool down and just wait for things to work MY WAY...(the best way) aaawwww!!!! GRRRRRR!!!! lol does that make sense??


Release my heart


But don't let go


I get lost upon your Emerald soul


It's a prison of emotion


I'm tied against its walls


I feel if I untie


the prison slowly falls




ahhhh feelings....